I am actually intending to blog about how tired I am and how much I have been yawning for the past few hours. Like really! I think my lips are going to tear already! =0( But I guess that will make you all YAWN while reading too! And I shouldn’t be that bad right? Haha!

Okay. And I am starting to realize how fast time flies. It’s like already the end of 2007 and for the past few months, I have been writing my dates as 2006! And it’s already 2008 in like 5 days? Or 6. Like really fast! I am about to end my year 2 already! And soon, I will be stepping into year3. Which is actually a freaky thought.

I rarely think about what I have done in a year to somehow “de-brief” myself on 31st of every December. Haha1 What I have done in the past few years? Like from 1989 up till now. Oh craps, I am getting older! I am getting wiser? Not at all man! I am actually trying to recall the past 18years but of course I can’t! =0) I have learnt to cope with O levels and honestly, I think that kind of feeling is so, erm priceless? Because it’s like everyone make O level sound like something that is so important because it “determines” your future. But I doubt so now. Life have many paths but either way, the destination is the same. I mean you may have an ambition/wish/goal but there are many ways to go about achieving it. That is if you are determined enough. That O level period is pretty stressed up and yes, up till now, I find it a miracle. Because I took less than 5 days to master POA which I never paid attention in class before. But that is with the help of some helpful schoolmates.

How I wrote notes till my hands went sore and numb. That day the results were out. I could remember so clearly. Or could I not? I was at first pretty sad with it. Because honestly, it was different as what I expected.

And choosing the school part. Totally bad! So many schools, so many courses. I knew right from the start, I am no JC material. Somehow. All of a sudden, I find things so, how do you put it, fated? It’s like if I wasn’t determined enough to opt out from another school to nyp, I wonder how will things be? I think I will have more eye rings because I have to travel to school for more than 30mins! =0) Lols. Orientation and those stuff. Year 1 and year 2 . Meeting some nice friends and having old friends that I have known for many years. I am contented with everything I have. But you know, enough is never enough?

I’ve learnt quite a number of things. But certain things, I still can’t master. My eq still sucks. I still don’t know how to handle stress. Besides crying things out, I only know how to pretend to smile. This year, I felt enough of that sour feeling. No no, I don’t mean jealousy. I mean the kind of feeling when you are forcing yourself to not tear. That kind of feeling in the throat. It sucks but I know how to handle it already. Drink water. XD And I know the pure joy of smiling and laughing. I found the idol that I know I will support till the day I die. Or till the day his songs cease to exist. Yes, you guessed it right. Jam Hsiao (Xiao)Jing Teng. I realized the pure joy of seeing the one you love smiling and laughing. So many things happened. I met two guys that are going to be my best male buddies for long. You-know-who-you-all-are. Because they just are too understanding friends just that they both are abit bad tempered! I love yue, yingg and chris more though we rarely meet up. I love my family more. I love all my friends more because I know everyone is imperfect in a way. Because I am starting to see my imperfections too! =0( But like sam said, the most negative imperfection is me being stubborn because I choose to see things my way.

=0) It’s going to be 2008 soon. I just hope to settle whatever I can. I just want to move on. I really want to. Can you help me? By saying you hate me? Because i know, if i control myself from crying because of you, i can forget it bit by bit.


=0) Overall, nut is a happy girl in the year of 2007!