take the wheel.

Tired! I am freaking drained of energy. I ain’t sure why too! It’s a bad day today! A bad start I can say! It was raining like ants and germs! And I wore slippery slippers! School sucks today! I am telling myself to like Lam. Argh, trying hard!

Fine, honestly, I don’t like blogging my daily rants or happenings here because I think this site is for me to record websites of JingTeng or when I want to share a particular song that he sang or something. But no choice. Argh! I think the weather there’s bad right? But it’s COOLING and that’s what matters!

Ar.. Anyway, talked to this self-declared world’s sensible-iest boy. But he never gives the answers and I am left to ponder on my own. I realized how wrong i am. I ain’t sure how to place them in words. A complicated girl tends to feel that other people is complicated. A simple girl will tend to feel that other people is simple. So that means I am not a simple girl! I am a complicated girl! Okay, classic example. Shit, I hate putting myself in a bad situation, I mean like proving how evil I am. You know how much I hate being around people. No, not that I hate company or what. I hate being around people when I feel exceptionally ugly or when I am sure I am wearing weirdly or certain fats are bulging. Not that I hate company or I feel totally inferior. It’s because I have the tendency to talk about people with erm, weird dressing or fats bulging. Especially when in a group, this comes naturally. Okay, fine, confession okay! You see, because you also do this, you know/think that others will do this too. Gosh, I suck at explanation! You get what I mean?

Never mind. So perhaps, I think through certain things. There are so many things that cannot be changed. You either live with it or blame everyone and yourself and live in what I call self-pity. I don’t want to point fingers at people, pin-pointing every mistake, every weakness. I don’t want to ask why some people want to make my life miserable because I am very sure I made some people’s life miserable too (either unknowingly or on purpose). Life is like super duper short! I don’t want to spend too much time worrying like an idiot. Grr. But easier said than done right right right? See! Talk so much and I still can’t get into a conclusion! Grrr.

And all thanks to Mr Wise…I finally realize that my ds isn’t spoil! =.= How dumb can I be. I always though my ds is like faulty due to the position of the stylus. It’s like it’s always not accurate. I finally learn to CALIBRATE it! =0)

People is either one week once, or one week 6days, or one week thrice.. Pathetically miss chocolate is 8months see once. Don’t complain already. Take care!

Something for me pretty please